Sometimes.

I feel that the whole world do not understand.

Somehow,

Only I myself understand.

What, then, can help?

I need You, Lord.

You have created me the way how it should be.

Use me, so that I can do a good job out of this life of mine.

I hate to see this world suffering.

Everyone is in pain, even myself.

Yet us human beings- we are forced to be happy.

So that everyone surrounding us can be happy.

The pain- the guilt, of seeing people dying and suffering.

That pain, that guilt

Is something which I cannot help myself from feeling in this way anymore.

No matter how much I cry, no matter how much I weep

Still the pain is in there with me.

And I need that someone to take it away.

To start things fresh, anew. And to be able to cope and work with me.

For the brighter, bigger future of the others.

Amen.

Lord, I love you..

I just can't stand this emotional pain anymore.